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If There's Fire

by Tom Aylott

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1.
Quick Route 03:01
On a witch hunt again with my pupils dilated On a ship made for sinking, On a man hunt again with my ego in tow, And these drinks were made for drinking, If you don't count the last time or the very last time, I’m still down for anything, But there’s a me you don’t see, when you’re pointing your finger, Two facedown and blinking, Took the quick route straight to East Berlin, Vial in my pocket and a war I couldn’t win, Spilled my guts in two ways later on, Forget what I said, forget what I did, carry on Put two and two together and came back with five, On a barstool made for stalling, I counted up my change and I came back to life, In a fool’s house made for falling, If you don’t count today, tomorrow or tonight, I’m still set on quitting, Don’t need this stale piss, don’t need these marlboro lights, I don’t need your rolling, Took the quick route straight from Waterloo, Running through my system was panic and a thought of you, Took me three days just to find my feet, Forget what I said, forget what I did, don't repeat One day at a time, one axe left to grind, A memory fading in the wind, I’m anxiously trying, to keep in the lines, But I can’t face this maze we're in
2.
1825 02:52
You said you wasted those years and can't look at a prick like me, That I really need help and treated you like a cash machine, One thousand eight hundred and twenty five days on, I'm sorry I'm just a liar, can't tell you where it all went wrong, But look what I went and did Broke your heart and left you for dead And time will tell if I fell out of love or needed to scream out loud That the pressure to swim was making me sink and bury my whereabouts You just don't know me anymore and I didn't take the time To explain I was drifting, that a ship was sailing into the night You were right, you were right, you were right I said I cherished those years and I'm trying to make a change Whether with or without you, but now you treat me like I'm strange, One day we'll meet by the ocean and stare into the crashing spray, Remember how it all started and smile as we walk away, But look what I went and did Broke your heart and left you for dead And time will tell… Goddamn this mess, I lost everything that I had left, Goddamn the times, I held my tongue and shut up my mind, Goddamn this part, I never meant to throw a grenade at your heart And time will tell…
3.
Since my first pair of glasses, I've been pushed around by bullies, Called stupid and ugly and everything in between, Scars on my wrists as I hit my teenage years, The alcohol kept me sane, Gave me something to hold on to I learned as I got older, Was drinking won't make it better, Even if it keeps those memories at bay, For an hour or two as you talk those demons down, The confidence kept us sane, Gave us something to hold on to But if there's fire left inside, I will make this all subside, And I will rise ten fold, bigger and bold Living my best damn life Dear reader, I'm a piece of shit, A liar, a cheat and an addict, Take a deep breath of anything I can see, Thing is I find, when I get that fucking high, I try to ruin my whole life, End up in the gutter alone again But if there's fire left inside, I will make this all subside, And I will rise ten fold, bigger and bold Living my best damn life And if there's hope left in my heart, I will finish what I start, And I will rise ten fold, bigger and bold Living my best damn life And I refuse to come back home, Til the landing light is on, And I will rise ten fold, bigger and bold Living my best damn life
4.
My Own Mind 02:17
Man in transition, Count my pennies, count my friends, Comes with tradition, We all know how this story ends, If I’m really heading to perdition, I might as well enjoy the ride, Don’t need a saviour or a mission, The water’s warm here, come inside, Every time, there’s a greener side Man at full throttle,  Dig my way out of a hole, With another empty bottle, We both know I lack self control, Time will treat you kindly, You’ll move on to better things, I’ll still be running round in circles, While you're picking out wedding rings, And it’s all I’ve learned, the darker side of my own mind, Every time, there’s a greener side
5.
On swaying seas you were too much for me, These salty eyes can’t wash away this time, When we anchored down in a one horse town, I laid the seeds; you’re far too good for me, Now you’re trying far too hard to define, I guess it never crossed your mind; A noble goodbye On rolling hills I swear I found the will, To up and leave; can’t walk away from me, When I lost the plot, When I took that shot, I wrote the deal in stone, You’re better off alone, Now you’re trying far too hard to define, I guess it never crossed your mind; A noble goodbye Cast to the four winds, My body is shaking, And I’m sorry I lied A powder keg, you said I lost my edge, Despite gravity you pulled away from me, But every time forever dies, I Choke on every bite Goodnight, goodnight, goodnight Cast to the four winds, My body is shaking, And I’m sorry I lied
6.
Big Enough 02:50
The devil right by my side, I found the truth in the back of a lie, That girl, well she stole my eyes, And left me tangled under turbulent skies, I found a way to define, That little voice in the back of my mind, That tells me not to survive, This world’s not big enough, not big enough to hide that - I’m not clean Don’t waste your trinity on me, Cos I’ve not been Here for many moons, you see Can’t bring myself to salute, My greatest failure in the cold light so cruel, I’ll hold my breath til I’m blue, See who comes running when I scream out for clues, And abandoning you, Was the worst thing I could ever do, But I'm still running through, This world’s not big enough, not big enough for the truth that - I’m not clean Don’t waste your trinity on me, Cos I’ve not been Here for many moons, you see I just keep counting the dots, That the lights left behind, While I try to sleep and wish for release
7.
Did you ever see that Doctor? Pick up scripts to make you sane? Get support for all the weight placed upon your shoulders By others that so wish they could be strong and tall like you Make yourself out to be every single passing day? Magnets from Japan split in half across the table Make me understand, I'm never ever ever gonna be more stable, Magnets from Madeira poisoned by the truth I dared to speak, I'll walk away, just like I'll do again, the past repeats Did you ever cut those cigarettes? Stop drinking to disaster? Stop thinking lines and pills were any kind of answer To the questions you've been asking, of the cost of counting time and The pointlessness of life when we're all just doomed to die? Magnets from Japan split in half across the table Make me understand, I'm never ever ever gonna be more stable, Magnets from Madeira poisoned by the truth I dared to speak, I'll walk away, just like I'll do again, the past repeats
8.
Okonomiyaki 02:26
In Kamakura We watched the surfers I never loved you more you see Hummed halleluiah Sung Cuba Cuba The pacific is as blue as I dream You gagged on seaweed Stuck to the sushi And I laughed until I couldn't breathe Watched for tsunamis Slept on tatamis Never wanted a reality And now I'm just that lump in your throat I'm just that tear in your eye I'm just that taste on your tongue I'm just that broken record Skipping straight to the end Past your favourite song In Hiroshima We held those tears I never loved you more than then Touched on an answer To human nature But it never rang true again Okinomiyaki And too much sake In a Beatles themed restaurant I think our picture Is still up on the wall But we'll never go there again And now, I'm just that lump in your throat I'm just that tear in your eye I'm just that taste on your tongue I'm just that broken record Skipping straight to the end Past your favourite song Straight from Osaka On a hangover I've never loved you more, you know Than when the driver Of that final bus Said Nabana No Sato

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This is a remastered version of 'If There's Fire', an EP that I originally released on December 31st 2016

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released December 31, 2016

Written and Recorded by Tom Aylott

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